Revelation

I love my study of witchcraft. It has been a process of self discovery and development that has slowly but surely crept up on me. I was made aware of this once again at my class yesterday when we were discussing spiritual awareness. I remember telling my spiritual friend, who at the time was going through his own spiritual studies to beware of certain people who would attach themselves to him because they saw his innate talent. He would balk every time I would point out the negative people in his life. He was surrounded by so many negative or needy people that he called friends. It seemed as if he were a magnet for them. In truth, he was. Yesterday I came to the realization that I too had my own collection of negative, needy people that I called friend and I finally figured out how this all came about for both of us.
When we come into our spiritual awakening and are in the process of developing our psychic and magical talents, we start to radiate this new energy that attracts other people. Unfortunately, this lovely energy attracts a lot of negative, needy energies: the psychic vampires. Most people are unaware that they are energy vampires so it's not that there is deliberate intention to harm. However in the psychic circles, where people are aware of energy, you might just find psychic vampires that will intentionally seek you out. I was well aware of the intentional types since I had been in the business of tarot readings for a few years, but I never thought of it beyond that circle. For the past six months at least, I have been wondering why it was that I had  drawn so many negative people into my life. Now I see that they were drawn to me and that I did not have the knowledge to understand what was happening. I have been systematically dropping or severely limiting contact that I have with these people. For my part, I did not have a good understanding of boundaries and would therefore let people come into my life and stay in my life that had no business being there. It was nothing short of a miracle that my friend and I found each other. The attraction was a good one full of fun and good energy. We synced up as friends because we are from that same spiritual tribe. We both were ambushed by these negative energies without being aware of what was going on. It took me a lot of reflection and honesty to understand. When I speak of these negative people creeping into my life, I am not implying that I was a victim, but rather an unknowing accomplice of my own unhappiness.
I was never that interested in formal training in witchcraft, and in looking at the group my friend had gotten involved with was for me, validation of my decision. There are so many strange agents in the pagan community, with egos much larger than any sense of spirituality. I was convinced that I could do my own self study. When the timing was right, I found my study group and from there I found where I am today. The small class setting with a teacher that has had many years of study and practice, along with fellow classmates that have had many years of their own path work, has been just what I needed for my own validation of the talents I have and for ones I didn't know I had.As I begin my final six months on the road to High Priestess, I am excited for what else will be revealed to me. Oh how I would love to have these conversations with my friend.